Weight Loss...

Four weeks ago, I started taking medicine to help with my hypothyroidism. I was nervous when I started taking the medicine...because starting any new medicine worries me a bit. But I was also hopeful. I was hopeful that this medicine could help in my struggle to lose weight. Last year, I lost seven pounds during the twelve months of 2010. I also worked out at least 5 days a week (except on the rare occasion that I was sick.) I ran my first and several other 5k's (even if it was at a turtle's pace). And I tried my best to eat a healthy diet. Of course, there were days when I ate more than I should, or ate too much sugar and not enough protein. But overall I felt I had a healthy diet. I tried to not focus on the number on the scale, but found my victories in my improved fitness...and I was happy. The last four weeks, I haven't been as happy. I wanted so bad to see the scale move because of this new medicine... and it hasn't. Well it has moved, but I have gained 4 pounds! I stopped finding as much pleasure in my workouts. I continued to workout, but I began resenting the fact that I was working out so hard and not seeing the results of my other blog friends. I wanted so bad to lose a single pound...honestly I would love a half pound loss. And yet, I would read people complaining over only losing 2 pounds during the week. And I wanted to scream! Why can't I lose this weight!!!
In being hopeful with this new medicine, I had lost my joy in gaining better health and fitness. Today, I want to start finding that joy again. I want to make fitness goals, and get excited to mark them off again. And I will. I am putting away the scale. I may never lose the weight I want to lose, but if I keep going joyfully and making the best decisions...I will be happy with my progress.